I feel so empowered.  I already knew everything in the book, I guess i just needed to read it.  I didn’t even finish the book.  Hell, I barely read it for 10 minutes.  But the entire time I was reading, the book was screaming at me to GET OUT! 

The book is He’s Just Not That Into You.  I think every woman (and teenage girl) should read it.  It really gives you a sense of value.  I knew I deserved more, but like a silly girl, I was sticking around hoping things would change.  I can’t blame anyone for that but myself.  He made it clear (several times) that he didn’t want more.  Now he didn’t come right out and say that, but had I opened my ears and eyes I would have picked up on it. 

He’s not a bad guy at all.  Please don’t think I’m bad mouthing him in any way.  I truly hope him and I can stay friends.  Not sure how he feels about that, but maybe in time.  We’ve been through an awful lot over the 5 years that I’ve known him and I do value his friendship.  But, I also value myself and my own feelings as well. 

 I feel like I deserve certain things AND I expect certain things.  I shouldn’t have to settle, and neither should anyone else for that matter.