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Joke of the Day!

heathersfeathers — Thu, 08 May 2008 14:58:12 +0000

I was walking past the mental hospital the other day, and all the patients were shouting ,’13….13….13′. The fence was too high to see over, but I saw a little gap in the planks and looked through to see what was going on.

Some bastard poked me in the eye with a stick.

Then they all started shouting ’14….14….14′…

My heart is breaking…

heathersfeathers — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 17:32:38 +0000

My heart has been broken (several times now) by someone who I once thought was my very best friend in the whole world. It kills me to think about all the things we’ve been through together in life, and even more so about all the wonderful things to come that we may not get to experience together.

Somehow I always end up being the villian in the story, which until now I’ve accepted. I thought that if that would make it easier for them (and their family) to deal with things, then ok. They needed someone to place the blame on, and I accepted the blame. But you know what…that was 5 years ago. Am I supposed to be a scapegoat everytime something goes wrong? Am I supposed to continue to let my name be drug through the mud just so you guys don’t have to accept responsibility for your own actions? I’m embarassed to show my face around certain people because I know what they think of me. They think I’m some evil person who is involved in all those horrible things. The things that have been said about me just don’t leave a person’s mind. Nevermind the fact that I’ve actually made something of myself, that I’ve come so far from where I once was. Nevermind the heartache and depression and years of rediscovering myself and my self worth…none of that matters to those people because in their eyes, I’m a horrible human being.

I’ve been there for you from the start, I was there when no one else was. I stood by you, just like I always promised that I would. When I said BFF, I meant it. It breaks my heart to know that I am now turning my back, but I can’t take it anymore. I am not to blame, not anymore.

P.S. I miss you.

15 pounds down…

heathersfeathers — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 17:29:23 +0000

Man, this is hard! I’ve completely cut out alcohol, not that I drank a lot anyways. I’ve also cut out bread, but I do cheat with this one every now and then. Hey…it’s a work in progress. lol I still have quite a ways to go, but I know I’ll get there. GO ME!!

12 pounds down…46 more to go

heathersfeathers — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 14:41:40 +0000

I have to admit, I really didn’t have a whole lot of faith in myself when it came to losing weight. I’ve tried, and failed, many times in the last 3 years. I just kept putting on the weight. Well, NO MORE!!! So I’ve lost 12 pounds, and I’m so incredibly proud of myself. I still have 46 more to go to reach my goal weight, but for the first time ever it actually feels like a real possibility. I finally believe in myself enough to know that I can make it happen. I guess I just needed that first 10 or so pounds to really get me going. Now I’m not saying it will be easy, I know it won’t…but I know that it’s possible.

I’ve been reading another guy from Texas’ blog, and he’s lost quite a bit of weight, too. He’s really an inspiration, not to mention a total goofball and really funny. Cute too. You know me, I’m always checking out the cute boys. If you’d like to check out his blog click here.

In other great news, my Dad went to court with my nieces mom again this week. WE FINALLY GET TO SEE HER MORE!! The judge in this case has been wonderful since day one. Very reasonable. We get her overnight every other weekend, and once a month we get to take her to North Carolina to visit her Daddy (my brother) since he’s in the military. We are so happy. I’d like to think everyone for their thoughts and prayers. It truly has been a battle to get this far and unfortunately, I’m afraid it will be a battle most of my niece’s life for us to play an active role in her life. It’s sad really, we are her family and we have to fight to see her. But dangit, fight we will. We love that little girl so freaking much, it’s totally worth it!!

I recently had my 24th birthday, and it was a blast! I have some of the most amazing friends and I’m so thankful for each and every one of them. Ashley and Nick got me a beautiful, amazing cake.

One of my sorority sisters is designing cakes now and she did a beautiful job. Thanks Heidi!

We all met up for dinner at Esparza’s and had a blast. Their margaritas are on a whole nother level. hehe Then we went out to Ft. Worth to party it up. Ended up at some bar I had never been to called Aqua lounge. It was pretty neat minus the fact that the bar tender needed to be schooled a little bit.

Me and Danielle in the car (beginning of the night)

Jen and I (with Danielle’s bra…long story)

Danielle and Ashley (two of the greatest people I know)

Danielle and her bra…it wouldn’t stick anymore lol

Me and 3 of my best friends in the whole world!!

Birthday kisses!

Dancing fools!

We get silly sometimes!

Nick has boobs too!

Nick and I

Nick and Ashley

Me and Jen

My sweet arse new shoes!!!

There are a million and one more pictures, but you get the idea. We had a great time and I’m so glad for everyone who made it. Love you guys!!!

More updates to come, but it’s early on Sunday morning and I have to get ready to go to my parent’s house.

MUAH!

9 down….48 more to go!!

heathersfeathers — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 03:33:57 +0000

That’s right! 2 more pounds lost since last Friday night when I weighed myself. I’m on a roll now!! GO ME!!!

7 down…50 more to go

heathersfeathers — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 19:13:06 +0000

Pounds that is. 50 more pounds until I reach my goal weight. I’m thinking I should be there around August-ish. Ashley and I are going at it together. So far she’s lost 10, and I’ve lost 7. I started about a week after her. We pretty much have the same amount to lose.

Jen has been a huge inspiration to me. She has worked her butt off…literally. hehe She’s been dieting and exercising for a while now, and she looks amazing. I think seeing how far she has come, and going at it with a buddy (Ashley) I might have a better chance at sticking to it this time.

My mom, Jen and I are going on a girl’s only vacation this summer, but only if my mom and I both reach our halfway mark. That means I have to lose at least 25 pounds before then.

He’s perfect!!

heathersfeathers — Fri, 22 Feb 2008 19:30:53 +0000

Oliver has been with me for exactly a week, and things are going GREAT.

At first I was really nervous about how Daisy would take to him. She’s really spoiled and I was afraid she would be possessive or overly dominate towards him. The first two days were a little rough. She would constantly hiss at him if he got anywhere near her, she even swatted at him a couple of times.

But now…

She has totally done a 180 and I couldn’t be happier. She still gets jealous when he’s sitting in my lap or when I’m loving on him. She’ll look at me with sad eyes like her feelings are hurt. So whenever that happens I make sure to go lay by her and love on her, too!

Now she will lay in the floor with him and they will play together. She doesn’t hiss at him anymore, either. I really expected it to take more time for them to get along. Here are a couple more pictures of my beautiful babies.

I’ve decided to adopt…

heathersfeathers — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 21:01:14 +0000

Another precious baby kitten. I’ve been thinking about this for many months and I’ve finally made up my mind. I waited so long because Kim didn’t want me to get another one while we were living together, so out of respect I waited. But, now that we don’t live together anymore, I’m going to go ahead and get one.

My biggest fear is how well my kitty now, Daisy, will adapt to having a little one around. Or if she will totally flip out on me or something. I’m pretty sure that she will mope around for a few days but I’m hoping it won’t last long. She’s very spoiled and I’m not sure that she will be willing to share me with another kitty. This is my beautiful baby Daisy…

I went to the animal shelter today and I found the little guy that I want to adopt. His name is Mouser right now, but I would change it. I’m leaning towards naming him Oliver and calling him Ollie for short. I like the name Finn too, though. But I think I like Oliver better. This is a picture of the little guy…

Here’s another picture of him…

Doesn’t he just look like such a little stinker? I love how his fur looks like two little horns above his eyes. I’m hoping to be able to pick him up tomorrow. Happy Valentines Day to MEEE!!!!

It’s amazing what reading a little book can do…

heathersfeathers — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 16:31:15 +0000

I feel so empowered. I already knew everything in the book, I guess i just needed to read it. I didn’t even finish the book. Hell, I barely read it for 10 minutes. But the entire time I was reading, the book was screaming at me to GET OUT!

The book is He’s Just Not That Into You. I think every woman (and teenage girl) should read it. It really gives you a sense of value. I knew I deserved more, but like a silly girl, I was sticking around hoping things would change. I can’t blame anyone for that but myself. He made it clear (several times) that he didn’t want more. Now he didn’t come right out and say that, but had I opened my ears and eyes I would have picked up on it.

He’s not a bad guy at all. Please don’t think I’m bad mouthing him in any way. I truly hope him and I can stay friends. Not sure how he feels about that, but maybe in time. We’ve been through an awful lot over the 5 years that I’ve known him and I do value his friendship. But, I also value myself and my own feelings as well.

I feel like I deserve certain things AND I expect certain things. I shouldn’t have to settle, and neither should anyone else for that matter.

Looks like it’s gonna be another shitty week…

heathersfeathers — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 16:32:09 +0000

So yesterday I woke up to find my fish dead. So sad. I had him for over 3 years and I grew sort of attached to him. He was so pretty. I knew it was coming though, he hadn’t been eating the last couple of days and wasn’t swimming around much. PLUS…he had two huge tumors. At first I thought they were fin rot so I treated him with several rounds of tetracycline, but it didn’t do any good. Then I found out they were tumors and there wasn’t much I could do for him. Poor little guy, I’m afraid he may have been in pain and there wasn’t anything I could do to help him. It’s a sucky feeling. Now I can’t bring myself to flush him down the toilet. Gross, I know. But, it’s only been a day and Zack said he would do it for me tonight. I guess this is one of those times when it’s nice to have a man around.

Then my boss called me yesterday afternoon, which is weird cause she hardly ever calls me on the weekends. She had some more bad news. The lady who sits at the front desk here at work…well her husband passed away over the weekend. We were expecting it, but that doesn’t make it any easier. My heart goes out to her and her family during this difficult time.

Also, one of our head foremen was diagnosed with a very aggressive type of cancer. They are treating him with 7 straight days of chemo, but the outlook is grim no matter what they do. My thoughts and prayers go out to him and his family as well.

I hope the rest of the week goes on without incidence, for everyone’s sake. Please keep the people I mentioned in your thoughts and prayers.

God bless!